Free Verse and Classic Poetic Forms
Illustrated with Digital Paintings

 
     
 

Revelation

   
  The world of the windo washer
Far above, self contained
Scaffold, squeegee and rope,
Bucket, rag, sandwich -- maybe a thermos --
Though nowhere to hold it secure from
The tumbling trip, the unwelcome
Awakening below.

The world of the windo washer
In a space where conscience dwells --
Over the shoulder license of the eavesdropper --
Always overhearing the invisible wind
Of the upper stories. Occasionally
When a shade may fall on the page
Or the square of sunlight bright on the
Carpet grows the shadow of a skull --
His presence is felt, observing.

The scenes he must see -- each
Separate cameo presenting itself --
Disembodied, detached from its
Neighbor, a nickelodeon naturale.
The windo washer lives in his world
Of surprise; witness to private
Suffering in hidden eyes. Such
Punishment and penance -- his
Peanut butter sticks to the roof of
His palate.
His inclination to intervene
Unacknowledged, superfluous: as
He takes care not to lose his balance.

He is a fakir, performing the
Rope trick constantly; hoisting
Himself by his scrawny scaffold --
Scraping and scouring the guano
Of pidgeons, hardened dung
Cemented to window frame.

Was he once that curious small
Boy standing and staring absorbed
In places unexpected --
Folding himself among hangers
In the coat closet, crouching
Under railings of the baluster
Peering from the dim pantry.

He was not a child who
Prattled, blubbering mouthfuls of syllables
Streaming spittle. He read his daily reader:
"This is a watchbird watching you!"

The world of the windo washer is a
Tight-lipped place preoccupied with pieces
Of a limited perspective. Solely for
The observer uninvolved. One who
Does not pass judgment.
 



 

Peddlar

 
  Ziplock is strong for what life has in store."
"No leak is a good leak" -- from "Huggies"!
Lemon flavored detergent and room deodorizer
That smells like a rain forest!
For you we have an assymetrical soul,
Cut on the bias for a full flare --
We have windshield wipers, click-clock
Clearing the dust with a self-spray!
There's a way to fake everything and still
Appear to be sincere -- or with a modicum
Of something similar.
Take this box of backup biscuits
To alleviate starvation ... for the word
That got away when you failed to write it down.
Here's a plastic sac for reminiscence
About unpleasantries, those small personal failures
That stick -- pinpricks when rummaging thru memories.
Better -- take this walnut box, lined with
Velour -- but avoid opening it.
We do not offer anything tattered,     
Shabby, or stale; nothing mummified or powdered;
No image damaged by pixels eliminated or condensed.
Here is a photo album with spaces for discarded Polaroids --
Those portraits you can't stand to scan!
Picture the empty cupboard, mother!
Where will you find that bone?
Perhaps we don't carry the things you want? --
A shiny gold star pasted in the upper right-hand corner
Of your spelling test? 100 percent scrawled large in the top
Space with blue ink! But a 'D" comes in scarlet,
With correx in the margins ... and a snapshot of asinine
Laughter over a puddle when Sunday school prayers
Took too long!
We can offer an Ace bandage to help
Reconciliation, or take this feral enhancing vitamin
To grow your prehensile tail -- when you feel you just can't care!
If you're poisoned and you don't know what to do:
Call 1-800-222-1-222!
 



 

Opening

 
 

Opening anything is just not happening --
Everything is sticking everytime
Nothing complying, I am trying
Jars of jam, mayonnaise and jelly, herring in cream
You can bang a lid on the counter or risk a tap with a hammer,
Beg a twist from any hand and wrist or fist that's handy.
Then packages arrive, armored in layers of 10-ply duct tape
Or gaffers' gun-metal grey.
Corrugated cardboard, resistant to scissors,
Boxcutter slips -- (off to emergency!)
While the inside book swathed in bubble wrap
Pops when I try to peel it!
Larger cartons are anathema; what's more
Annoying than foam peanuts spilling!
Dreaded most of all is opening a show,
A reading or performance: I refuse
To be the first to go!
I sense quivering, chest fluttering --
I must protest and I confess --
I can't warm up an audience
For laughs or money --
I'm not that bold, & not that funny!
Give them music delightful or spiteful
To start their laugher -- O.K.?
Then I'll go after!!!

 


 

Afterword -- the 11th

 
  Everyone now has time
to select an attitude
like the Hoberman Sphere
whose compensations shield
that platitude
in practice: unacknowledged
meditation, clinical
interviews proceed
without hesitation --
excluding intrusion -- reservation in advance.
Information discloses indifference
in the unscathed, never the bereaved.
Layers of conversation divide
the space in this room.
Layers of thought are equally tangible --
With regard to the filming of the ferry:
a collection of stories steeped
in marinade -- of the watching as the ferry
turned around and the skyline crumbled.
 



 

Blizzard Birds

   
  Shadow in the corners of mirrors,
Wires frosted white,
Seventeen pigeons in snow
Thirteen sit side by side
On phone lines strung in a double row.
Four perch on the last row down
Covered in wet snow falling.
Then ten on the first,
Six on the third, one more flies calling.
When surfeited with the idea of ideal --
A scratch on the surface makes it real,
Or nail polish peeling, camouflage fading,
On the lines pigeons huddle, nine remain
Snow keeps blowing.
A birdhouse needs a roof for the feeder
In this weather, some ledge to shelter under,
A tent to shake out feathers -- I run
With a beach umbrella, but these gulls don't know
What to do, windblown,
In this -- their first winter snow.
 



 

on cloning

 
  Let's Not outlaw cloning
nor make making a clone a crime
we do fear
late night images in movies: horror genre
when the cloned cells grow into babies!
They will start a new religion
"Modern Souls": souls without restriction!

(VOICE)
"We are our own Temple"
"Our souls are better than yours!
cleaner, newer, singular, and sharper!
YOU have the Old Souls' Stock
in superstition . . . retribution
New Testament Style:

No longer eye for an eye nor
turn the other cheek either -- !
Would such babies be invincible!!?!
Not subject to terror, worry, or prejudice
-- An AMAZON is going to become
THE FIRST NEW MOTHER OF THE FIRST NEW SOULS!!!!"

(VOICE)
"NO -- We will make it all illegal -- give false doctors with false clinics
another chance -- has this ll happened before??????"

(ANOTHER VOICE)
"Buy a better HEART -- guaranteed not to modify its frequency!
insurance may cover it
pay us half of all your income earned:
whether by skill or through gambling --
for the rest of your working life and all of your retirement --
even after you die -- SIGN HERE!"

SO -- LET'S DON'T make cloning illegal --
if one clandestine birth could create the Antichrist! . . .

(VOICE)
let's just see what she looks like!!!
I like the thought of buying a new leg -- Never for Vanity!!!
at least not at first!
 



 

Columbia

 
 

That spindrift of snow
As the wind blows
The lightest breath of ice
In frozen air.
When angle of sun hints at rainbows.

Invisible yet glimpsed
Though scarcely there --
To live in sight of such beginnings
Ends in an instant, sooner --
The most fair are the first to go.

It makes me nervous
When mortality's too visible
So obvious, so noticeable --
At all cost we must ignore.

As something breaks away
Tumbles bumping over, past
The ridge where we can't see
A heavy edge of ice crashes
Smashing under the wing.

A noisy nothing, an anomaly
Merely. It must have made
A noticeable noise, scraping the metal hull
The metal voice declares that all is well --

No safety factor breached
All goals are reached
Data sent while sendable
Transmission still dependable
Nothing thought expendable.

It's the same old rivalry disguised --
Rigid rules or compromise
Curse the blessing
Bless the tranquilized.

Consider a public death
Disintegration under a billion eyes
The massive budget cuts
Are proved to be unwise.

But what defies imagination
Is the horror of the time
It must have taken
To smear a streak of fragments
Through the skies.
Picked out in bits of hell
Cracked open
Like a broken walnut shell
All beauty dies.

 


 

Gorditas de questo!

 
  If I had a terra cotta God
To keep in a niche on a shelf --
I'd be tempted to pray
For recognition I might ask
For some fool proof chance to
Feel appreciation --
Viva la viva la viva l'amour
Viva la Compiegne! --
-- So! -- It's good to remind
myself, what a miracle I am --
Having survived the microscopic
maelstrom of conception, its
rush and flood -- that crush of
crowding hopefuls -- that first
of life for which this last survives.
It's good to remember -- (recuerdo)
Blind I survived -- sightless
Retaining a vision -- so:
Here at 4 in the morning
Seated on a cold throne awake
In that hour -- I hear (pregundo)
When most succumb --
I stretch and anchor
The first strand (responde)
of another web.

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Observation

 
  Inexpressibly satisfying --
the joyous face, the energy
of compassion. Pain is there --
always competition, always pain.
Refuse to suffer -- Je refuse: as
Marie Antoinette on her way to
public death had to go to the toilet.
The only place, the street on which
she walked -- before meeting the rope
or the hatchet.
Do we need drama? Damn straight.
Damn right -- we hate good and loud
and lean in full trauma.
I score low, slow, no show --
can use this too though!
Marie was thinking ahead
about pissing her gown --
after she was dead -- indignity!
Maintaining her honor -- whatever
that may mean -- those last moments
make the meaning of queen.
In the street, she stoops down
scoops her velvet gown to the side
and simply peed. She was freed
of looking unaesthetic, stained with
urine, and pathetic! I'd be nasty
I'd be hasty, crusty, ghastly:
goddam happiness is real --
boring but that's what I feel!!!!
 



 

On Ending

   
 

I need to get a really good pen
for smooth, bump free writing.
I need a guarantee that one thing
in my day flows going over paper.
I can feel you hating. I can see
what's faded: amusement's now
annoying; indifference smothers
heart's imagination. I need to
duck your boiling irritation: you look
in my direction -- not at me. I want
to dodge the bullets in your eyes.
Such huge change must be gradual;
the small sharp edges one by one
come stinging suddenly; then twos
and threes with greater frequency cut.
In this warm June air I shiver with
your misery. I'm jogged beyond the
comfort zone of how far I can see.


 

 

Burning Ghat

 
  One windy morning (early), I wandered down to the river
It's not far distant --
I carried brush and color, and paper pinned to a board --
Looking for something, I don't know,
That one might come on randomly ... and wandered upstream.
There came a silent procession, bearing a wooden stretcher
Covered with orange flowers; and underneath
A pair of withered feet and the face of a very old man,
Eyes closed in that stillness not of sleep. I followed:
They climbed to an open temple -- a stone platform --
A pile of wood -- and gently set him down.

I sat by the river sketching
The roof, the pillars, the sky, the figures.
I could not paint their cries, so I left their faces blank,
And painted only the gestures with quick strokes of orange.
As the sudden fire bloomed
A grey veil of smoke washed over the sky.
By chance I came to the river --
It's not far distant.
 



 

Lepers

 
  He can sleep anywhere
The hand makes a pillow for the head
Knees keep the chest warm
For blanket he has arms, maybe.
He guides her
She helps him with her cane --
Together they stand -- barely.
She is blind,
He has no fingers on his hands.
An old woman
With no bones in her face --
Her nose hangs over her chin.
She's thin and small but looks
Very like a lion.
(When first) I saw her I cried
"Oh, my God" -- she loudly repeated -- "Oh, my God".
In the early morning the lepers come to market --
Those with arms pull those who have no feet --
On small wheeled carts. Down all the streets they come
Singing and chanting clearly.
Their song is wonderful, though I cannot tell its meaning.
 




 

The Children of Divorce

 
 

Eat at Micky D's
Little guys perch cautiously
Sipping their straws too quietly
Bewildered fathers thread their way
Carefully, french fries spilling
over the tray. Interviews for
counter jobs: at three today!


 



 

looking for

   
  I'm looking for that feeling when the feet
Don't touch the ground, you've lifted,
Then you're headed for the water off the dock.
How cold closing over your head, face all wet
And dripping when you come up for air!
The swimming it's not, but what's come before --
That moment when the ground just isn't anymore.
I can't have that to keep -- it won't preserve:
Not like ham in salt, nor smoked as jerky,
Not dried like jalapenos, nor plums in syrup.
It won't be wise to show displeasure nor admit
Spotting hesitation, don't complain ever, no
Satisfaction. Hope is repetition.
 



 

Holy Slam

 
  sing: this little light of mine; I'm gonna make it shine! etc.

One hundred and eleven Catholic bishops
admitted permitting priests who are child
abusers to continue as parish priests,
playing shuffleboard, shifting to new locations.

Here is Father Smith, caught with little Henry
Paderewski behind the vestments in the
sacristy closet. We can trade him off for
Brother Aloysius -- who exposed himself in the
Holy Mother Queen of Peace procession.
With all the little girls sprinkling white petals
off the snow ball bush. While the boys wear
crown vetch in their buttonholes or sometimes
periwinkle.

Place that cloistered monk far back in the abbey.
Never let his sticky fingers taste the petals.
Aloysius is a hardy perennial. He notices the
child in the white lace dress whose slip slipped
to the floor before she reached the altar --
a safety pin loose.

Then there's Father Patrick -- just over from
Ireland -- butter wouldn't melt in his mouth!!!
Disregard this Image!
Put him in St. Agatha's -- there's a space to fill
since Father Smith left. And where will we put
Smith, then?
Oh! Let him in the sanctuary -- he can instruct the
new altar boys! Just keep him out of the lavatories
temporarily, of course.
And let Patrick organize the Parade Day this year --
with four-leaf clovers and all -- it's a lovely thing --
with all the little bastards in their green bow ties.
Just don't let him tuck their shirts in -- or whisper
in their ears. -------------- Nevermind!

Little Henry's mother swears she'll sue the church!
Best get rid of Smith right away then -- send him
curb his balls.

In the meantime there's Father Dan who's been
coaching Little League after dark -- it's beyond me
what they can see out there in the fields.
-------------- Nevermind!

If we all stick together this will all go away --
someday -------------- maybe --------------
But what's taking them so long in the confessional!?
 



 

Cost

   
  I like to spend my time doing things
That don't cost money -- to waste a day
On something that won't charge
A quarter or a dime!
That eliminates parking right off --
Could we include sunbathing?
The cost of lotion counts, some sunburn
Soother, and a kerchief or a hat!
Daydreams carry the cost of wasting time --
You don't pay by the hour for a dream
I pay if I can't stay awake!

"I don't have a dog in this fight!"
Right! Take swimming, you don't
Have to own the ocean -- or the stream;
Rain water from the sky is free!
You still need a barrel or a bottle
For that dream! No! That's a condition
With no admission fee, no required
Permission. Take your camera --
You'll pay for digital climbing:
Road Runner high speed on-line!
"Possibilities become Realities!" --
Possibility is a monthly fee
To boost the price of cable.

Not one breath is free --
Though breathing publicly
Or privately -- is done
Involuntarily -- to charge
Is an ability: put a dollar
In the breath-o-meter
And catch your breath!
Don't hold your breath --
Take a deep breath
-- Declare your freedom
To see the world in a Hoveround!
Call your mobility specialist for a free demonstration!
 



 

Looking

 
 

who is this looking
who is this looking at
who is this looking
not liking.
What is this looking at
what do I see
not liking
not liking at me.
Stale story
coffeecake plot --
can't rebake or glue
can't help not liking NOT.
the looking won't look
like I'm liking
I HATE ALL!
marching to the skin drum.

 



 

Newspaper Poem

 
  There is THAT behind his face --
THAT will find a new home.
If I hide a fingernail under the kitchen table --
Does this mean I'll be back again?
No one will see -- who does not read the paper.
The news is just news -- did they give The Penalty?
THAT never smiles -- He strikes and fumbles
In the mouths of sleeping children.
 



 

Nightingale

 
  A sculptural configuration, something like Tinkertoys --
A skeletal presentation, "just the bare bones, please!"
Surprise by design! What shapes balance
in your mind; what would I find browsing there?

Angular disdain, corners of shame or static humility
Faked against arrogance, ever your preference.
I like the obstructions you stamp in your way
With the heel prints, the sole prints of stones'
Sarcastic grimace.

Humorous detours of synapse
Controlled by cartoons, animated finesse.
Complex activity, plans of cookery, bread in bakery,
TIVO's episodic fakery -- whatever it's called.
And what happened to your hobbies?

Your hundred gallon fish tank, your kayaks,
Your snowboards, your bike. Where is your Nikon
For stills, your Sony for video, digitally inevitable.
Where do you hide your game paraphenalia? --
I saw a new game yesterday, called animalmania.

Looks like chickens flooding the place -- fast forward
To bears, pigs, jackasses, and a pacing dog piling on;
Better than zoomed to death by laser beam -- shoot the
(By the way) I saved the leather label from the jeans,
the lift tickets, the e-mails; been to a few concerts, rap
annoys -- no more bluegrass, forget the Bagboys.
You'll be waiting for snow; weather-watching, hoping

To go away north. These tracings of thought seem
Fluorescent; so focused, intent on intention.
I see the balloon tethered by ropes in Macy's Parade.
Impressive size, floating character, eyes bulbous --

Figure below height, hardly noticeable, sails the boat
Or flies it. He's the one I'd like to know.
 



 

Mollusk -- restroom attendant

 
 

Decrepit body in the library lavatory
Discarded, ambiguously wasted
He cleans the toilets' overflowing,
When a bowl regurgitates, he's in charge.
His hips creak as he mops wads of toilet tissue
The bowl floats paper boats --
Brown submarines hang underwater.
Hands tremble, neck pulses, knees shake,
Altogether visual, a string quartet.
He swears by his brown paper towels
And the dimes in his tip tray!
Leave him a lucky crumb or two,
Most do.


 

 

Panderer

 
  If the shoe fits, walk on the other foot!
A blizzard of gnats in one spot over the grass:
Something touched down -- and quickly left --
A mark, where the mayflies swarm like blueberries
In a blender.
Sympatico at first, intrigued even, then persistent;
Hiding the empty pouch he must fill with
Sweets or money, or preferred, information.
His dance is multiform: the dance of gnats --
From a distance unmistakable --
The walkthrough brings a scattering of accident.
One defense, a singular advantage -- other
Styled abundance: that blooms after the rain
In an insipid Kalahari. Harvest whatever,
Replant hydroponics. Cultivate the microscopic --
Avoiding cataclysmic amoebas who cling to a
Rock formation, multiply overnite, choke
Other life.
Repulsive carnivore, sticky, skinny, pale --
Offer the sycophant things he won't recognize:
Talk the asteroid belt, tell Jupiter, or Callisto,
Sing the exosphere, ionosphere, meso, strato,
Thermo, tropo; praise Giovanni Cassini, or
Nicolaus Copernicus. Extol the grand
Panjandrum! Ignore his urgent need
To gratify, resist his wish to satisfy,
He trades cheap beads and blankets,
Smallpox infected.
Take heart of the abundant land.
 



 

Process (1)

   
  It's a thing about the thought
The thought I was thinking
before you began talking
talking about money .........
But what WAS that thought
I was thinking before
you began talking about
........ money.
I will not get sucked in to this thought --
Not that thought -- that was
not the one I was thinking
BEFORE you began talking about
........ money?
No. I don't want to talk about money --
My head was not in that place --
but where was it? ..... before? you ....
..... lost .....
I hate it when someone disappears
my thought and replaces it with his
..... about ......
"I could take a loan of 10,000 dollars
and live on it -- maybe just taking a few
hundred dollars out each week and then
putting some back. Just taking it out
and putting it back ......"
It was not that thought.
Was it about growing plants?
was it the wood sculpture?
was it Kirlian photography?
Or the clay portrait of Craig
who likes Red Zinger tea ....?
Remembering dreams .....?
It may be that those who killed Indians
are Indian now, and those of us who are
Indians are not easily identifiable by
our faces. I like you.
 

 

Process (2)

 
  Did I say I wanted more wood for the fire?
Elizabeth .... I want to see God ...
I'd like to go with you and Gail to Merrimack ...
(Not any of these) neti ... neti
We will make a healing circle for Sandra, yes --
But that wasn't the thought I was thinking
before you began talking about money ......
suddenly find myself saying
You can do that easily only in large amounts --
like billions of dollars ... like Bernard Cornfield.
Not this -- not this ------- sandalwood? John?
Was it the meaing of Turangalila?
In the dichotomy and the symphony?
In Lila -- the play and the rhythm, the dance?
In the men from Albuquerque, from Schenectady
who sat behind us speaking of raising
the price of their tickets.
In the white clouds
and the black clouds
In the pale sky
we saw on the way to Symphony Hall.
In caring more about loving
or more about time to myself.
In the work lost in color and light,
and in the work I will do --
Anticipation -- the opposite of memory
is all the same thing; all a symphony:

 

Process (3)

 
  the music, the standing ovations
and Messiaen in his simple brown suit,
in walking home to the fire engines
the police cars on Symphony Road --
all the same symphony:
I just wrote the poem I thought I couldn't write!
But that wasn't the thought I had
before you began talking about money:
"take a loan of, say, ten thousand dollars
then deposit it in your first account
pay interest of, say, 50 per month over five years
withdraw, say, hundreds of dollars a month --
pay back 50 only -- then take another loan to pay back
the first, and so on -- transferring from one account
to another ---- but if one thing goes wrong
and they need cash ----- not that, not that ---- .....

I'll read fragrant and radiant healing Symphony
But I've lost that thought I was thinking before .....
Lithography, I'll study print making! .........
Did you say I won't make enough money?
I'll study images of women in art and
Women as artists ......
The kitty owes Greg a dollar and a half for
Tomatoes and milk .... NO .... not this, not that!

 

Process (4)

 
  I'll read now about the Indian called Juan
With the tattered vest -- who saw the Virgin
In green and gold and blue and rose
Appear in the mountains .... to him .....
Giving him roses to carry to the bishop --
And the image of the Virgin in green and blue
And gold and rose appears -- dyed in deep color
On the inside of his tattered vest and is now there
Today. This miracle -- Our Lady of Guadalupe --
And Rosa Ramirez in her blue silk hood
Was on the float of the Virgin:
I think that was it!!! I've got it!!
It was the children, the Indian children
Carrying white banners of the plumed serpent!
Atlantis' symbol! That was it!
The Plumed Serpent of Atlantis -- Quetzalcoatl!
I've got it back -- that was the thought I was thinking before ....
On the banners in the procession of Our Lady of Guadalupe
Today is the Plumed Serpent ......
The symbol of Atlantis ........ thousands of years lost.
 



 

Room

 
 

When I have time I'll pick up
Everything from the floor --
I'll put it all away
Glancing from left to right:
The light emitting diode tells
Digital lime green time;
Sunday's color supplement
Carries a Giants' Sofa ad;
Empty rootbeer bottle
Bowl of vegetable lasagna
With a blue handled fork;
Paper napkin folded asymmetrically;
Black moccasins; pink envelope
With bill from Mastercard (protuding
past the fake fur postcard);
"Poetry from the Other Side of the Century"
open to John Asbery's "Rivers and Mountains"
p. 402; Walton Ford's print from Kasmin
Gallery "Sensation of an Infant Heart";
August issue of PC Photo;
Yellow Pages and Telesor, the phone!
If I have time I'll pick up everything
And throw it all away!

 



 

Sam

 
 

A Husky needs to take his own direction, needs to be
the lead dog of this team. He'll be content though
that's just me -- and his younger brother,
now that he's old. Determined still to show us
the safest way over dangerous ground.
"Follow me close -- I won't sink in mud,
I won't fall in water, I won't slip or slide
on the hill. I'm still as sure as ever, though
I've traded speed for care. You can trust me --
Of our fifteen years of joy, I won't spill a drop!


 

 

Boxcars

 
  There are toy boxcars in the Lionel trains'
antique procession.
You don't give credit when no one overhears.
You take credit exactly
crustacean deep anchored.
I've overheard scenarios,
eliminating characters -- i.e., me.
Invent yourself, change the plot --
and move on, scavenger.
You hold up a mask that's smiling --
you are not. You hover like starlings
to snatch the grape and fly.
Self-centered like an orbit of
concentric circles. Repetitive pattern, a habit
of hustling everyone all the time
with a friendly manner to conceal
the feeling: whatever turns up can be useful.
That's why I call you Scavenger.
You run your life like a selective
garbage disposal.
 


 

'The sensation of an infant heart' (Walton Ford)

 
  The red howling monkey
and the militant macaw struggle:
the monkey is winning,
his hands clutch the throat
of the bird, whose wing is
motionless, whose eye is closed.
But the monkey is chained to an anvil.
Steps are mounted in the hillside;
A tree straggles at back.
Here is an image completely
Self-contained, empowered:
The sensation of an infant heart.
Finds its way into the best pages,
Among the richest minds
And onto their walls!
 



 

A Trial -- prologue

 
  Dear Sir or Madam:

I ordered slides from digital images -- standard Photoshop files.
The shop assured me and they advertise digital services.
Fully 2/3 of the slides were BLANK -- obviously useless.
These images were created by me and are of excellent quality.
I immediately looked at the slides when they arrived on the 13th.
The salesman agreed to a refund.
I returned 2/3 of the slides, kept 1/3 which were OK.
HOWEVER,
He charged my card again for the whole amount!
This $94.00 charge is false because I had already paid for the
slides on April 6, when I placed the order: $90.00 was charged
for the order on that date.
The man was yelling at me so loud that I left and didn't see this
overcharge tho I did return the defective merchandise at that
time.
I enclose the sales receipts from the transactions on the 7th and 13th.

Thank you,
Jackie Cassen
 


 

A Trial -- part 1

   
  That woman sitting in the front row
is the lover of the deceased --
the woman in orange is the defendant
A half gallon of ice cream lies
melting on the floor --
Incongruous proximity
Multitasking is better suited, better computed than
undertaken by the mind's mistaken calculation.
The brain can handle only so much at one time --
Jumping 75 jump ropes together untouched by rhyme.
Driving while talking on the phone becomes a crime!
The cooler air is coming down the Hudson. While I am
talking to Mastercard about Victory Camera's bill:
charged and collected for blank, empty slides.
Victory snatched the fee -- 184 dollars on my credit card.
Now Citibank wants its payment. While Horror Man
at Victory Camera yells: "You already got your refund!"
I try to explain to Mastercard -- I couldn't believe
he would still put through the charges -- but the bank
doesn't know slides -- they just know their slogan:
Don't spend -- collect!
Don't buy -- collect!
Don't pay -- collect!

 

 
 

A Trial -- part 2

 
  Citibank is impartial -- its humans train that way:
"We will investigate -- in the meantime you pay
late charge! We'll get back to you."
Victory Camera suffers its owner -- exhausted
from holding back his violence --
But not too tired to be mean!
So --
I signed for the slides before I saw they were blank!
So --
I expect Mastercard to come to my defense --
"Someone must pay," says Citibank
"Nothing comes free" -- vigilance is needed
to assure it won't be me!

Victory, you're a cheat --
yelling to disguise your own defeat
"That's the warning!!" But what
a half-assed way to waste a Tuesday morning!



 

Celebration!

 
  O' 'Tis a glorious parade!
A happiness celebration!
A wondrous thing entirely!
The drums go bang
And the cymbals clang
The music is something grand --
A credit to old Ireland
Is MacNamara's band!
--------- has anyone cocked an ear
for the silence on the other side of the world?
Is there someone who can hear
The children over there?
They're not dressed in green at all.
The mother's not looking so well --
Stuffed into taxi cabs
Piled in wheelbarrows
Bundled with boxes and bags.
Everything they can carry
They've got their own parade,
They're marchin' away from the town
As far as they can get before
The bombs come crashin' down!
Don't we have something to share? --
A bit of the Londonderry air?
We live by each others' grace
And we live by consent --
Thinking we own,
But we only rent.
I'm ashamed for the shamrocks
Stuck to my cheeks
Shamed for the celebration
Shamed for the ignorance
Of pride in the face of our nation.
I seem to have missed my stop
When I dialed in the time machine!
I've landed in the dark ages,
The coldest the world has yet seen. --
Wait! Here come the Hibernians --
The ancient order and grand!
And smart in their new uniforms
March Port Richmond's high school band!
On this glorious day in spring
When the flags are all unfurled --
Why can't I hear anything -- but silence
Or feel a thing but the fear --
On the other side of the world.
 



 

A Catalog of Ills

 
 

A catalog of ills -- ailments and complaints
Might take some time to conjure up
Some space to contemplate.
Who'd be the first
What the fiercest named
Which worried questions designate
The fault most likely blamed?
Ailments and assorted ills unnamed:
Admitted irritations
And silent sublimations
Avoiding confrontations,
Just busted plastic balloons
Bits of color, torn cartoons,
Weak drawings of ragged moons:
No graceful soothing line
No smoothing fine
Or elegant design --
Occasionally you're blind
It turns to pee sometime.
Your knees crack
When you bend back
To climb upstairs.
Your fingers slip
You've lost your grip
The cup falls to the floor:
The soup spills
Your eye fills with despair
There's a shaking, shaking, shaking
And a trembling hesitating everywhere.
Of balance you were master
All your skill is now disaster
Decline declining faster
All aware.

Raise up your voice
Scream out or curse
And castigate or worse
Vilify.

Protest object and hate
The strongest awaited
Is the longest hated.

Do not go gentle, remember
No May just December
So blow up whenever you feel
that this passing of time is unreal.

One day lifetimes will last longer
Each one gets a chance to grow stronger
One month lasts ten years
Early death disappears
With concomitant fears as well.

So complain long and loud
Until you feel proud
That your head, still unbowed,
Retains humor.

Become the Torquemada of the contented
Bear a bolus of displeasure
Don't take a thing for granted
Hold tight to all your treasure.

If you want something
You've never had
You've got to do something
You've never done:
Be Bad!


 



 

Poetic Forms

 
     
 

Sestina -- Untervasser

   
  What is suspended underwater
Only remains, remaining as bones
Dimly seen thru murky light
Seaweed waves as if a field of grain
Moved by tides ebbing or surging
In fog. The vision is haunting.

The voices of foghorns are haunting
Those lost long in these waters,
Stilled now where once waves were surging
That carried the weight of their bones.
Less and still less than a grain
Of wheat, the toll is not light.

This mist won't permit a piercing of light,
All its shapes are configured for haunting;
Waterlogged wood shows no grain
All patterns dissolved by the water,
Even the texture of bone
Is washed away in the surging.

Undergrowth, debris, all is surging
In quiet tide without light
To penetrate. The bones
Stir faintly, all their length is haunting
In the lapping sounds of water
As it flows against the grain.

For bread enough, for beer they once had grain
Against the fullness, hungers, girth was surging
So heavy all sank in the water
Wishng the weight were still as light
As a wraith, for this haunting
Will come with their bones.

So slowly rest drifting, these bones
Mark the last of their grain,
At bottom the haunting
Traces a hope in its surging
Patterns filtered by light
Reflected in water.

As bones, there flows surging
As grain grows in light
Goes the haunting of water.
 



 

Sestina Doble -- Kinesthesia

 
 
1.

The music of life is fire
Song is the source of life
Color sings the note
Voices mark the beat
with sharps and a major in "C"
Variations in B flat or plain.
The scale in a quick turn around
Counting out 1 2 3 Four
Bursting to set all in right
rhythm; beginning again with two
melodies winding in tape
Octaves half finished in blue.
 
 
1
2
3
4
5
6
7
8
9
10
11
12
   
2.

Songs in such soft tones seem blue
Like smoke circles shaped round
Float without anchor on tape
In contrasting rhythms before
Folding their wings two by two
As if observing some rite.
Seen on a visual plane
Music is moving like fire;
This grace may allow ear to see
Every note as harmonics alight,
Intervals defining a beat
Pausing to wait for each note.
 
 
12
7
11
8
10
9
6
1
5
2
4
3
   
3.

The composer may pause to annote
Improvising on this, the same plane
Preserving the sense of its beat,
Lifting one flame from its fire
To share with the shadows its light.
High above waves of the "C"
flows the one note, the chord sounding right
Seeing blue
Feeling too
Breathless in singing this round;
Repeating the cadence for
All of its value on tape.
 
 
3
6
4
1
2
5
9
12
10
7
8
1
   
4.

All wavelengths are subject to tape,
Most can be captured aright;
The eye and the ear therefore
Melding all colors, yet blue
always circles around
With its sharp and its soft sound too
Like an island encircled by sea.
As tides become worthy of note
With the ebb and the flow of light
The coming of night on this plane
raises moon fire
Striking a beat.
 
 
11
9
8
12
7
10
5
3
2
6
1
4
   
5.

allegro animato calls the beat
in altisimo cedes the scale of "C"
accelerando speeds the fire
affretando agitate sings the note
Flying above the plane,
Reaching beyond the light
Counting alle breve two
Over the rest of the tape.
Waiting until it comes round,
The harmony is right
With the color of superb blue
While two by two makes four.
 
 
8
10
12
11
9
7
2
4
6
5
3
1
   
6.

Fortissimo poco fore
And back to a count of two
Where the wind has blown, where it blew;
The finale ending the tape
Prima Volta Rubato. The right
Legato Grandioso quasi round
A Capella Grazia  light
Rollentando Rigoroso  for beat
Ma non troppo bene  plain
Appasionata Bravura  in "C"
Cantabile Cantando  by note
Suspirando brilliante  in fire.
 
 
8
10
12
11
9
7
2
4
6
5
3
1
   
7.

Wavelengths of light long and round
Declare to the eye for
acceptance: this rite
of selection, a choice more than two
from these hundreds of shades, more than tape
can remember. More blue
tones, more reds than in fire
More rainbows of light
and palettes of note
than the artist can beat
Or the drummer can see:
Not the perspective of plain.
 
 
7
8
9
10
11
12
1
2
3
4
5
6
   
8.

Atmosphere on this plane --
In the distance a fire
Bright vision, a sea
Reflective with light
Overflowing the beat
While the moon draws a note
In electronic blue.
Scribes round
In a blending of tape
Shades of four
Tones of two
Where a dark brush may write.
 
 
6
1
5
2
4
3
12
7
11
8
10
9
   
9.

Rotating color, the wheelwright
Masters the digital tape,
Duplicates composing too,
Details with shape in the round,
Rendered with tone in the fore
Ground, and sky where the winds blew.
Pixelation is marked with a note
At the site of the second plane
Where the climate appears beat
By the temperate warmth of fire;
Seabirds fly down and alight
By the warmth of the sea.
 
 
9
12
10
7
8
11
3
6
4
1
2
5
   
10.

The world may know not what it sees:
Painting with light is the true note
All color forms in waves. White light
Can be drawn out and fixed to a plane
As if flooded with fire.
Baked glass in molten hues beat
Shapes the pixels in RAM and on tape
Of that rite
Where the colors are four
Red yellow green blue
With black in a back round
And white making two.
 
 
5
3
2
6
1
4
11
9
8
12
7
10
   
11.

Watching the colors spin to
Listen as they turn the tape
Succeeding each its place as they go round
And every tone calls forth a sound that's right
From cadmium to blue
And not just four --
thousands albeit
More than one can see:
Glissandos chorus choirs of fire-
flies, more than the eye can note
Or ear can see the plain
Rhapsodic orchestra of light.
 
 
10
11
7
9
12
8
4
5
1
3
6
2
   
12.

The whole must swell, one only can't alight
Nor stain the deepest red of beet
That alizarin deep; nor thalo plain
Taint colors of the sea.
The blue green algae sing a sharper note
Against the tint of foxfire
Bright as tangerine or berries for
contrast; then the purple grape to
Sound a chord when blue
Envelopes tape,
A perfect rite
Of passage, circles round.

 
2
4
6
5
3
1
8
10
12
11
9
7
   
Voi

The light of chroma fills a thundering sea
For chords of red resound with chords of blue
The beat appasionata -- cadence or single note
All spectra gives to every scale the right
Quasi plain ma non tropo fuoco;
Tape captures glissando, forzando ends the round.

 
2-5
8-11
4-3
10-9
6-1
12-7
   
Fine

 
 



 

Sonnet 1--December Sonnet(Petrarchian)

   
  No thing can last that nothing may dare change --
The seed must turn to bud, the bud to flower
Each in its turn is touched by sun. The hour
Static in solemn movement seeming strange
Yet repetitions' charm would so arrange
This winter Death himself bows off the stage
Until the newborn spring will come of age --
Belated then he executes revenge.
But ice will melt to quench the thirsting green
While flowers appear the same yet not the same --
Yet so deny the hope in life is death.
Again the leaves and blossoms will be seen
In Nature's diverse order rests the blame --
Inhale, exhale are both the single breath.
 



 

Sonnet 2--N.Y. Harbor (Shakespearian)

 
  Allow the city lights and lights of planes
To draw the shapes of buildings or define
The life that wakes within when windows shine
In pricked out squares and dots of windowpanes.
The red, the blue, the green from seaward gleams
On ships that signal other ships, or fly
Predicting storms or traffic in the sky
And cut the night in half with searchlite beams.
Over the harbor came the planes to fill
Predictions made by prophet long ago,
That earth would shudder, buildings crumble so
That only rubble lingers after kill.
The skyline's shrunken bite seems dull today
That front incisors now are torn away.
 



 

Sonnet 3--For the Missing (Spencerian)

 
  Beyond a place where none can hear their cry
In quiet grace. Beneath some alien star
That one they follow still it leads them far
With breath arrested breathless now they lie
With breath arrested breathless now they lie
In finding safety failed, still hopeful are
In knowing wounds don't heal without some scar
To help them breathe again or let them try.
To help them breathe again or let them try
Our persevering search. All comes to naught
Knowing when life is lost, the game is fraught
With dust, this twisted evil grows awry.
That day the world once known came to its stop
This day waits for the other shoe to drop.
 




 

A Crown of Hours

 
  Seven classic sonnets one for each hour
Of prayer as celebrated in monasteries by
Cloistered monks and nuns. The Crown is
A formal suite recognized in literature.

 


 

Matins-Lauds

 
  In endless sleep there comes a constant wakening
When everything is just about to happen;
When dream is lifetimes long, lifting comes sudden
In silence. Stillness tells that sleep is lightening;
The tension of the dream has loosed times tightening.
Sound echoes in the alley but is hidden
By shaded window; shutters open,
All rushing sound is hushed before the brightening.
When labor's sleep has stopped its work to wait
For something more and other than the known
A cold clock chiming matins-lauds strkies thrice,
The pendulum begins to undulate.
Till something more will strike, each waits alone;
After the night hours patience must suffice.
 


 

Prime

 
  After the night hours patience must suffice;
The taper flames, an idea of itself
Creates a brightness, warms that gulf
Before first daylight melts quick morning ice.
Chill shapes each aspiration; now seen twice
The outward breath in air appears a half-
Formed cloud, a space of white, a cough, a laugh.
Cold is a reason; darkness a device.
Some fire burns in every breath I take;
The window blooms with light -- a single ray
Transforms transluced glass to golden blue.
The window of itself no light can make
But sends it forth or opens to the day;
With every breath a deeper light comes thru.
 


 

Tierce

 
  With every breath a deeper light comes thru
The spokelike spiraling branches of the tree
Of Paradise called Tree of Heaven -- free
As weeds, stronger than oak, a true
Green sprung from brick. Trees of the city do
Not need much care; these are content to grow
Alone.   Stone grants adaptability;
Slow pressure cracks cement, they grow anew
Inch toward each sun at noon, ubiquitous.
When blindfolded my fingers saw the grace
And sensed a perseverance I'd not known.
Leaves fill my window now, amphibious
Light makes this room a bright green place.
Last summer's fragile fern is fully grown.
 


 

Sext

 
  Last summer's fragile fern is fully grown,
Its fiddleheads have opened in the fires
Of noon. The sun's demand is what each tree requires --
That fruit will come after the flowers are blown.
The yellow flower falls as gourds grow round
And orange, brown and full the vine desires
To shoot fine tendrils newly each aspires
To follow footprints. In the sun, sunflowers abound;
Now windows are the mirrors of the sky
More bright than blue reflecting glancing gleams
Of sun. Strange faces have the look of friends
While mirrored in the window of the eye.
A spark of sun shoots forth -- its changing beam
That sparks a light alive when noonday ends.
 


 

Nones

 
  That sparks a light alive when noonday ends
Which holds cupped hands enfolding mellowed air
With fingers slightly touching. What is there
To grasp? How clutch at light, what clasp? Sun lends
To all but not to keep. This day sun sends
Its borrowed brightness only. Light more fair
May rise when this sun rests. Who does not care
Cares best. Who dares to let light leave depends
On none; keeps pocket candle guttering
On window sill against the waning day.
The air retains some warmth, white clouds are led
By hands of wind across sky, shuttering
The eye at evening, fading blue to grey.
I stand beneath fresh rain. I taste new bread.
 


 

Vespers

 
  I stand beneath fresh rain. I taste new bread,
Liking the touch of water moistened crust
From water softened sky. The eye will trust
No tangled branches woven overhead --
Just clear grey air. When others turn to bed
And shade their lamps to think of things, they must
Before there falls some final rain of dusk --
Decide, complete, enact -- I pause instead
Outside this wall to watch. One window shines
The single open window one can see;
A slender hand extends -- crusts fall for birds.
Long fingers slip and part the growing vines
To separate a way for birds and me --
That rain may touch the cold smooth stone of words.
 


 

Compline

 
  That rain may touch the cold smooth stone of words
Words must be set like sentinels, unlock
As dolmens set out lasting time from rock.
Like silica, like mica, glint like shards
Of quartz, like nocturnes struck from gongs with swords --
Words myriad shimmering windows shock the dark
Like splintered sparks from flint are struck,
As crisp night seems to sharpen stars.
I dream that in my sleep I wake
To find such splintered necklaces, such chains
As cities signaling to planes spread beckoning
Below. Each candle lives; the windows speak:
Light must be seen through darkness; both are names.
In endless sleep there comes a constant wakening.
 




 

Villanelle--Skyline

 
 

As long as I can I must stare
Too much space near the center is free
I remember two tow'rs once stood there.

These buildings are solid, this air
Now clear -- what once was, still I can see --
For as long as I can I just stare . . .

Graceful and tall, slim and spare
Simple shapes but described perfectly --
Two tow'rs I recall once stood there.

Shrunken, smaller, the skyline seems bare
Filled now with a grave memory,
As long as I can I must stare.

Those who live near the sky must beware
Water flows from the eye silently,
Remembering shafts once rose there.

Their lives must be honored with prayer --
No longer life lived as safely
So long as I can I must stare
In remembrance of those who died there.


 


 

Terza Rima-- Baghdad - "Founded by God"

 
  (The film on TV right now:) Shows explosions that light up the sky
And it's green, that sky, with night vision
Rockets streak speeding fast by.

Crossing the screen with precision
Clouds of black smoke clog the scene
Anti-aircraft burst out with decision

Earth viewer.com can be seen
As a map sticking up in 3D
With buildings and hills plasticene.

Buildings burn, but lights in the city decree
That some spirit lives on as alive
As the people hold fast their esprit.

The director has called for a moon,
While the extras crowd in tents of plastic
Hoping an end will come soon
To their camouflage costumes fantastic.

Though the movie is saved -- an archive --
How long will the extras survive?
 



 

Terza Rima-- Nightmare

 
  Often and often of late
I wake of a sudden at night
With fear, in an unholy state.

Of panic, and freezing in fright
At something that hovers unseen
With weapons and troops for the fight.

While ever and always this dream
Traffics bacteria's germs,
Sour and curdled like cream

Gone bad. All thought turns to worms --
I'm feeling the skin of my face
For smallpox or chemical burns.

Heart catches, the breath starts to race,
Waiting yet hearing the sound
Pulsing and pounding a pace.

A pound, a pound, a pound, a pound, a pound --
Another, abeating; another, abeating, a DOOM.
 






Copyright Jackie Cassen 2006